My mom sent a text saying, “Skip my birthday. We need a break from your kid.” I didn’t argue. I simply turned around and took my baby back home. Two weeks later, when they found out we spent Thanksgiving at a private lodge with friends who flew us out, my mom’s first message was, “Why didn’t you tell us you were going there?” I got angry and replied.

And apparently, bringing my own baby to a family gathering was where they drew the line.

When I got back to Seattle, Vanessa—my best friend—called.

“You okay?” she asked, and her voice had that soft tone nurses use when they know the answer is going to be messy.

 

I finally let myself cry.

Not loud, not dramatic. The kind of crying that comes out of exhaustion and realization. I told her everything—the text, the turn-around, the way my hands had felt numb on the steering wheel.

“They’re treating you like you’re less than because you’re a single mom,” Vanessa said quietly. “You know that, right?”

 

I swallowed. “I know.”

Ever since Maisie’s father, Derek, decided fatherhood wasn’t for him and disappeared before she was even born, my family had been colder. Like I’d committed a shameful mistake instead of bringing a beautiful human into the world.